Well, I did it. It's been just over 2 weeks, since I took the plunge. Yup, got married *sigh...again!* But, this one is IT! I can't believe how happy I am, how lucky I am, how full my soul and my heart feel.....as if I have been missing some big chunk of both for years...Now I know I had been missing for at least 9 years, but fate was kind enough (and Mark patient enough) to allow them to come back to me.
It hasn't been a completely idyllic 2 weeks.....we've had several kid issues come up. No, no, not that any of them are unhappy, just general kid issues. When you combine 2 families of kids of varying ages, you are going to discover issues. Nothing we can't handle, together. And, of course, the ever-present issue in most households, both old and new today....$$$$. We are still on a shoestring budget. Neither of us is used to having much help in that area, so we need to sit down, figure out what bills we have vs. what we bring in. You know, regular married people stuff ... : )
I am a complete dork about all this. I have been fanatic about getting my name changed. Within little more than a week of our marriage, I had my new SS card, new drivers license, had changed insurance info at work, and was working on getting my bank accounts and work log-ins changed. Every time I do something around the house, that I may have done a thousand times before, I can't help but think about how it's for my FAMILY.
This is not to say I didn't have a family that I love before I got married. I told my children again and again that it was just us....even when I was with Him, it was still the kids and I, because He lived such a separate life. We stuck together, had to, but now it's just so much more. I am not sure how to explain.
By the way, I saw Him Thursday evening...I know He saw me, but neither of us acknowledged the other. I hope He is well. To quote Forrest, "that's all I have to say about that." Funny how something, no matter how long you may have been involved in it, can fade once you realize you had been forcing yourself, WILLING yourself to try to make it matter.
Anyway, thanks to all of you who were able to make it down on a rainy/sunny/rainy/sun..no, rainy, no beautiful but windy day. And, to those who were not able to make it, thanks for thinking of us. My HUSBAND Mark and I (Mrs. Mark Miller---hehehe!) are very happy and plan to be for a very long time to come.
Next up: other non-romantic, non-mushy, non-wedding related posts.....
ok, I may lapse into what my friend Betsy calls "cutebutgross" territory occasionally, but I will try to keep a lid on it.